thinking thinking thinking

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I'll start with Anderson. If I have an "Adam," I really don't know who my "Adam," is. I've never taken any proposals seriously; I see it more as there are immediate demands of my attention. "Adam," could be Howie. If there was another local, I really don't know for sure who's share Howie's could be. I was offended at his show last year and watched few episodes.
The thing in talking to you both: the actions are that I feel I keep on getting thrown around from one stockholm to another. I've already complained of exhaustion. If you havn't noticed, you guys aren't the only stockholmers. I know I have always been against the demands of slave labor and with so many demands after feeling exhausted, this feels like more slave labor. Being a couch potato as slave labor? Yes. When my attention is demanded, there is more to it than just being a couch potato. I'm tired of the way life has been. There are these expectations from such a list of people and I feel that it has been getting me nowhere. It is back to V for Vendetta. I can't get a job now anyway, why not be a couch potato? I can temporarily do this for only so long until I ask the question once again: what is it that anyone really wants from me? What do people want? I will watch the show though.
Jon, I think there could be some gossip with you and my Aunt Sue. I don't know if you really even see me as "Assad." Of course I think it is such a ridiculous label to put on me, but I did personally hear the words "your days are numbered." I know where this was said but not 100% sure who said it. It was definitely a man who said it. That was so mean. Jon, I have a feeling that you could possibly be testing me more with bossy women and sexually demanding enemies such as Stacy and Joe that I hate. What part of "mercy," do you not hear? Do you just want me to remain an "iso," while they make their claims of dominion? Do you want to squeeze and wring out any emotional expression from me to their satisfaction? You know, I'll give it to both Joe's that they are good looking, but it really is their personalities that make them unattractive. Same with Stacy. I was never as bisexual as you made me out to be to begin with. As for Assad, I think you're just dumb to keep looking at me like that.
Can't you show some sensitivity or gentleness?
Sometimes things get in my head and I don't know what to believe. I don't mean that in a personally mental way; I mean that in a paranormal way.
In other thoughts, not a whole lot of people are saying anything. If there is anger about what I've said with China and some cruel and unusual punishment to read into, I'll just take everything back that I said I hope America goes bankrupt by China. I take it back. I think there is some math that is intentionally off of how I meant it, and forget the reason that I ever said it. Just nevermind, I never said it at all.
Maybe some people are going to take their time in saying what they think, but there has got to be some kind of explanation with everything that is going on. I can't take the pain and being reduced to nothing anymore whether: it is based on a personal nonsystematic opinion I had of someone meaning nothing to me, or not it has nothing to do with anything.