Tom

I think that you may have some idea of me by now. There are stalkers of rage who don't really think clearly and then there are a more professional group type of stalkers. While you may not live the life of the real character in Mission Impossible, I would assume that you still have some level of professionalism in you. I could also use some scientology bias, but the thought of logic is more explanatory towards something else.
Your story has been different thus far. You have already taken action to restrain yourself. I was actually more paranoid with either Medvedev or a colleage who knows they want to kill and are already taking action to get a restraining order. I will probably post this to Medvedev too.
Selena Gomez? I have had some slight paranoia with the matrix name but no hard nails on the head. With another example of a movie with JLo, I have been reminded once again of the death threat. I have not seen the movie "Selena," yet either. I hate to feel that this is some sort of rat race or contest at who gets to be the killer and what gets to be the reason for the murder. You aren't the only death threat, but you are also one that can't be ignored. With some reminders, it feels more like some sort of stockholm than you being restrained. I believe how possible that is, but still feel blinded to numbers of people I communicate with.
I hate that you may also have a share with my sister Katie's husband, "David." I hate the way I am forced to answer to him and already hate his pretentiousness. I hate the idea that his ego is getting fed and decieved through you. A homicide is a homicide and you can't deny that, but whether or not a person's truth is denied, is still something a person will always know for themselves. This situation is already creating more of an obviously known resistance from me to David and I hate knowing that he is probably going to challenge himself or make me his conquest if he doesn't carry out the homicide but make me a victim of his threats.....
You can call me expensive, but you can't call me a hooker. I can definitely put you both in the Gadaffi list but both of you are still clearly two different people with your own snowflake fractals.................
I can only guess from here what your issues are. If you want me to help you put the gun down, you may either not want that or you might give answers as to how I am supposed to disarm you.
I'll explain my best guesses to your agenda of how I personally think about me and Katie. First off, in any relationship, 99.9% of the time I blame the man, not the woman. I have noticed that some women can get offended over my disregard to them and I would assume my sister is one of them. HOWEVER, in this situation, I never tried or wanted David. In the matrix there is a Dane Cook and a David Cook. Just because the matrix exists; does not mean that my snowflake philosophy does not. I can see how people can plot and plan ways to make it look like I was somehow having an affair with David through Dane, but when I was talking to Dane, I was talking to Dane. In my world, it can be fair to say that I was intentionally playing games with Dane. With David, no. With Kate Hudson, yes and no. If my sister sees herself in Hudson, she is free to see herself however she wants to, but she cannot control how I perceive her. I obviously do not see my sister as my sister sees herself. She is violently arrogant and offensive in her moments of rage. So is Kate. Still, Katie refuses to acknowledge what I think of her at all. They are both very provoking and possessive. They are both very controlling. I think my sister would compete more over a victimization game before Hudson would. Katie wants to be the bully and the victim. Hudson seems like she knows she is the bully and the bully that wants to continue to provoke and entitle herself to say I should invest my time and energy in whatever her bullying games are. She thinks I should prove myself to her. My sister acts that way too, but she is still piggish. Well, Kate is piggish too.
Back to the idea of men in general..............Sometimes there is talk and heresay as to who is responsible for what. I definitely have had a large number of sabotaged relationships with men. Sometimes it is heart breaking, other times it isn't that bad. With whoever the women have been, I have mostly labeled them as weedwackers, but also the movie "Atonement," is another example of how I would see the picture. Maggie and Katie and possibly Beyonce could be seen as the little sister in the movie. In this instance, the little sister is more innocent and ignorant than anything, but with Maggie and Katie, they give themselves the entitlement to call the shots in the relationship. I see them all as codependent. Beyonce could be different to describe than Katie and Maggie. Still, for someone to take control and want to be the boss and shot caller of the relationship? I don't know if you have ever had your encounters or challenges of someone calling the shots in your relationships, but for the most part, the third party would be a blood boiler for the majority. I'm also not naive to another woman's real seduction and intentional sabotage whether the sabotage is seductive or not. But where does the blame all go back to? THE MAN WHO IS THE ONE THAT IS DECIDING WHICH FEMALE TO GO FOR. Now, it is possible that Katie and Maggie could have been the most offended at one time or another with a list of different men other than Katie's husband David. A reason for their controlling nature, stalking, possessiveness, and violence may be trying to say that they demand my jealousy and demand that I feel threatened by them. I've been at a point where it is impossible to say anything: no matter what I do, they will be psycho. They demand control over my feelings or emotions for whatever sake of self satisfaction they are looking for. It isn't that you just can't control a person's love, you can't control a person's jealousy or any emotion period.
Some people can be good actors or they will let their emotions flare with whatever emotions they may be having. It is just how people are with or without communism. I have had my fits in my own ways over Maggie or Katie, or a list of other women that I have issues with. A lot of times I feel we are not on the same page at all and they are looking for a different type of satisfaction than what the real reason for my drama is.
Back to the idea of Atonement, I'm also not naive that the man from a distance "is somewhere in a war and being a hero somewhere and somehow fighting for my love." If there is a guy who really is a soldier, he really can be given the credit of being the soldier. But, when a person tells a story to give an idea of a lover's emotions, I'm not naive to other possibilities that a lover could be living through. There is possibilities of soap operas that could branch off from there. I'm not sure if you are looking for a list of soap opera stories to help disarm you. I'm just making up my own best assumptions to whatever reason you would be wanting to murder..................