Some stuff to say

There will always be numbers of pressures and stressors. I really hate some of the things I am aware of. Sometimes, I hate to feel that I have to defend myself over things that are just plain ridiculous.

My mind set is changing. What people would usually think and assume some of my main focuses are, aren't at all. Mainly, politics. I hate that I am a vulnerable adult right now at this moment. I am living a very personal life, and hate that I know how much I am being watched. I hate the additional judgement, criticism, and possessive remarks people make of me concerning the mix of politics and my state of being. I do not consider myself a coward whatsoever; this next huge change in my life is not meant to be a political agenda at all. It will not be subjected to one either. As for other people being paranoid of my own recent personal choices and judgement; it is not even about them. I mean this in a large political spectrum. This is about me and my life, and everything and every specific person involved, personally.
While people may be constantly subjecting me to their agenda's of entertainment, my change will be to continue to have the same stance as I have always have in dealing with people's expectations of me to be subjected to entertainment.

In other thoughts, I am happy. I will eventually say more thoughts, but right now, there is so much I keep to myself.

Crafting: I had a great weekend. I hope to find at least one more festival other than flea markets to set up shop. Flea market went well this weekend.

Still looking for a job.

I will probably make this a movie week and rent a bunch of movies.

So Anxious either way

It could already be very obvious with some people or if even assumed. I'm being vague anyway...........I have to wait until payday. I would feel a little embarassed and actually a little upset if my instincts are wrong. If my instincts are right, it is a completely different story and will be overwhelming. I would be happy but it would be overwhelming. It is not a cry waiting to fall into the wrong hands. I already have a major hunch at what some enemies would go any lengths to do and I can't let that happen. It will be something to completely prepare my mind for if something were to happen. It is not happening at the time I would want it to happen but I would bust my ass.

Work is well. Halfway through the week. I think it is going to be easier than what I would assume. It makes my life a little less overwhelming. Winter time will be more of an obstacle.
Crafts. I'm mad because I still get a little exhausted and as productive as I planned to be, I'm not getting much done. caffeine diet is killing me. must do. I need to make this blog short and sweet and postpone some other ideas and talk about those ideas for another day.

I still have not figured out the matrix. While there is so much drama within it, the specific drama this time involves some man drama. I really would like to elaborate a little more, but it will be postponed until later. I can already spot a few men. Right now, I am focused on one literal man and the hint is he is in Virginia. I do try to pick up on other things. In being vague in the state I am in, I just can't help myself right now with making efforts to keep my head on straight in all ways and not cave into some of my vulnerabilities. I may have to play an aggressive game of phone tag to find him. I may not have to. I may find someone else to game with.