Playing politics: Micro rightfully seen, macro overlooked

I havn't talked about political talk in the most literal context for the longest time. If I had anything to say about Burmuda/Bollywood: I give myself no credit in playing God. I'm not in agreement with the mass prisoner release and know I was speaking in more specific ways than generally speaking. While I deny Burmuda as much of a real world, I refuse to deny that I have a serial rapist/murderer. The years of scars I have over the most violent lies and denial and repeats. While I know I personally have some men denied, others have battered me with their power and rule book and have chosen it by far over me where I am left as nothing but an "it." I won't see or do things a man's way and they chose their sense of power over me too many times. It's not meant as a pass to Angelina over "Maleficient," but I've never not noticed the violently rejected "it," I've been and its not that I identify entirely with the name of role either (not to be butched even more). Its the concept of men being vain, jealous, and narcissistic over power and making their choice of what matters most (not me). … I could go on with my personal pity party. There will always be a part of me that resents crying out loud and feeling like I've personally exposed too much but I've already been past the point in crying out loud too much. I still feel suicidal when pressured and forced to be a lesbian. Odds that I won't be let down, dwindle down. I've yet to be proven something else than a man having to be the fascist rule book battering king... I keep getting back into my soap opera rabbit trail, redirecting into political thoughts, my main root and jeer: God speed for all things vital: God please quicken the process of vaccines and cures. God bring peace to all panicked, especially myself. God speed for economic stability for all. I see panic with a lot of ice cream deliveries: vital money being spent on what could be a last indulgence for a long period or even life. … People are looking at macro-economics but statistics of deaths in crime need to be looked at. I would blame increased crime on matters of economics, poverty, and various types of desperation, and I hate to say there are things I know I have personally noticed. I don't encourage fear or panic, but I think the issue of crime needs to be a more evident issue and have a role in death statistics too. In economics, it is very well said that there is a close of businesses and other careers. I would well believe it is incredibly higher than 18%. The stimulus check will be late and help only so much. The speed of obvious demand jobs needs to be sped up especially to the ones suffering job loss. The hiring process should be a peace of cake and a made offer. The ones suffering job loss should be first. I heard of one place already turning one business into a hand sanitizing business, but the in demand products should create more places of widespread factories and manufacturing. There are some new careers to be made out of present circumstances. While people who have mortgages look like they have some kind of break, rentals should get some kind of break too. I have one loan that is already offering a deferment, and I hope more loans offer more deferments. I both presently and in the future have a serious obstacle of childcare and childcare rates. And, with Mitzi's asthma and asthma at this time last year, I have so much reason to be worried sick and where the safest place for her to be and how much I hate being away from her when I have to work. I fall through the gaps with my bills and income and would not choose to intentionally set myself up to fail to fall through the cracks further into assistance and more significant losses. I can't save myself from the increased lack of sense of safety I have in my life on all ends. I was panicked before the epidemic. I don't like the new fear of crime either and I feel the fear. I know I have been greatly stalked, preyed on, and threatened, but the threat just gets heavier. City or no city, it is a heavy threat. God speed, God speed, God speed.